Monday, March 31, 2008

Happy Late Easter!!

I definitely celebrate it better 2 weeks after the fact. <3


Ahh, yes. Tickling. Its one of the most commonly kinky things a person/partners can do. Many variations on this a form of innocent bonding from parent to child, mostly sensual: as foreplay between lovers, as a playful gesture between friends to ease tension, torturous tickling as an act of S/M ..... and the list continues on. :) My personal loves stem from intimacy...being touched lightly and intensely with some of my first sexual partners. This is usually termed nerve strokes.... a term I learned from a licensed massage therapist AND ticklephile buddy of mine. :) ... I noticed how amazing it was that my body responded sexually from having my neck gently kissed.... from having fingers trace the length of my spine...from having someone slide their fingers through a small portion of my hair. This was heaven, and it quickly drove me to another place. I almost always immediately got into my submissive mindset when I was handled this way. Now that I’ve had the pleasure of meeting others into this, as well as have a real tickling experience or two, I’ve come to recognize the intensity of tickling and its effects on me personally. I see this almost as an extreme form of control in some ways. Tickling not only provokes a physical response in the body, it also provokes an almost fearful or panicked and anticipatory mindset in someone who really reacts to touch. This explains why, after someone has already started working on your sides and releases, the near site of the wiggling fingers above your belly provokes laughter! Wow, this is a crazy form of control, is it not? I’ve always thought it was one thing to make yourself endure pain, and quite another to endure something that provokes involuntary muscle contractions and intense screaming ;) (maybe this is just me??) hehe.... I have never see someone getting spanked or flogged that couldn't stop making noise and writhing around like tickling does. It really is a whole other form of control. Also, much like in intense pain scenes, good tickling most often digs deep into subspace. In tickling this often occurs when a 'lee happens upon silent laughter, a pleasure I will never forget. The sensation literally gets so intense that you can no longer laugh, or scream, or cry...the only thing you can do is breathe in and out...and you lose yourself.... In my silent laughter I felt myself almost rise above my own body and float. I could not have spoken if I wanted to. I could think "stop" in my head.... and I remember wanting to say it out loud in a consensual sort of way...but it was as if my body stopped working voluntarily for me, and all I could experience was emotion. Pretty fucking intense hu? Yeah, I thought so too....its no wonder I crave this shit. Those pain sluts have nothing on this!! In fact, most subbies I've met wont do tickling at all... it’s a hard limit for them. Although, I will have to admit, my pain-slut friends can endure much more than I can in an S/M scene... I love spanking and flogging, but can only take it to a slightly reddened bottom kinda level ;) Anyways, Ill try to write again soon. <3 Here is a very good description I’ve found about tickling elsewhere on

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

My first post, much needed! <3

So, here I go, this is my first actual blog outside some random profiling site. Here it stays. Ill try to be good and update fairly regularly :) Whatever the hell that means... hehe. But seriously, I need a good reason to keep myself online a few times a week, and heck...its a learning process right? Its 2:02 in the morning and I work at 8am, so I should probably make this a short one. I wanted to comment so badly this week about my recently re-captured appreciation for kinky. I had the pleasure of having some wonderful naughty times when my friend Jen (an appreciated pain-slut) came here to visit a week and a half ago, and then, just last weekend I attended NorWescon....a local science fiction convention with an abundance of kink as well. Mmm :) Im hoping to have a few more fun experiences now that Im also venturing out and attending local tickle-phile gatherings. Our little munch group meets monthly and the sole couple that shows up really wants to play. Also, after attending a BDSM panel at NorWes I got a card from the woman that runs a Seattle womens BDSM discussion group once a month....Im thinking this could be a fun time :) I just need to get over my shyness enough to attend, or find a willing female to come with me. Anywho, off for now :) Sleepyland awaits. I go to rest pleased after trying a new stout on tap at the "Rock Bottom" and watching the broadway show "Cabaret" tonight with some old high school chums! Im blessed to have such awesome nerdy, faggy, fruity, and kinky friends. <3 XoXo